Although I’ve never been big on the old New Year’s resolutions, last year was a different year for me. Maybe it was coincidental that I began to get resolve-y right around the beginning of 2011 and decided to make this a year of change. When I found it was the Year of the Rabbit, though, it seemed like destiny. Rabbit! It’s not my Chinese birth sign (which is a rat–so not cute) but has become a symbol for me over the years. It was already in my logo for a business I’d wanted to start, but only existed on a few hand-printed cards.
I started to tell people that this was my year. I was going to get my business going and figure out how to spend more time with my boys. I was going to get off the hamster wheel that had become my life. I had no idea how to pull this off, time-wise or financially. I started talking about it a lot, though, and eventually believing myself.
I started taking freelance work, coming up with a web presence, all the while not knowing exactly what I was doing. I updated my cards. I hoped to go from working full-time to part-time in the fall when my son started kindergarten, even though I had no idea how that would work.
Then in August, I got laid off.
The universe just thought it would take care of that one for me. Since then I’ve been muddling through a mix of joy and panic, but muddling forward and really, very happily.
Suddenly, it was a new year again. I looked back and realized that my 2011 resolutions were fulfilled.
I recently read this incredibly inspiring speech by the late Steve Jobs. There are many quotable gems, including one that especially touched me about following your heart and intuition, which I will be carrying with me into this new year. But in reflecting on 2011, I quote this:
“…you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”
And now it’s go time. Time to make all the little pieces of the dream that came to me when I opened myself up to it a more permanent reality. Let’s do this 2012!
But first, let’s enjoy this happy little song I found when I Googled “rabbit connect the dots” trying to find an image for this post.